Balance

In between Yoga and Zumba today I looked down at my feet and the parallel lines running down the length of my living room floor reminded me of a balance beam. I wondered how I would fare if I had to walk on a real balance beam, several feet off the ground. Not very well,…

Sparks

I’ve been thinking a lot about us — I know that’s no surprise. A new year brings back memories of paths traveled, promises made and all that each word implied. We thought coincidence was actually fate leading us time and again toward each other, until finally, at last the spark ignited and all I could…

I Drew Myself a Bath

Tonight I drew myself a bath. Surrounded by bubbles and  steam I thought about that kettle, the one I thought was worn through. I thought about that  woman on the edge, afraid, still wanting, needing,  to take that last step and fly. I thought about Jenny,  crying alone in her  bed while John retreated to…

Honor the Ending

I slept in this morning, last day off for 2020, and last day of the year, period. First thing I did was write in my journal, mostly trying to remember my dream. I was in a large, Vegas-style hotel, trying to find my way back to my room, but the way back meant climbing a…

Batting a Thousand

I was talking to someone the other day about my college days and when I mentioned the road trips with the guys in the basketball booster club, he suggested I probably had a great time practicing my flirting on them. I told him I knew nothing about flirting back then (or now) but he pointed…

Ocean

She came to the ocean to pray.  To walk on the cool, damp sand and feel its grit between her toes.  She came to feel the wind touch her face. Anywhere else it would be a blast of cold and bitter air, blowing through her and taking with it the last bit of hope, desire,…

In Spite of You

You can tell yourself that you did it for me. Kept your distance, stayed silent, to give me time and space. But the truth is you were avoiding my tears. They make you angry. You think I cry to evoke some reaction, some action, some feeling, from you. Perhaps they make you feel just a…

Just a Date

“It’s just a date on the calendar,” he said.The same man who remembered all the dates.The day he saw The Stones on SNL.The day he decided he would be a father.But December 18?It’s just a day. The day we said “I do” with our childrenat our side, holding handsand joining my family to his. Now…

Music Fridays: Happiness

There’ll be happiness after you But there was happiness because of you Both of these things can be true … There’ll be happiness after me But there was happiness because of me Both these things I believe There is happiness in our history Taylor Swift, Aaron Dessner