I’ve never really been a numbers person. Numbers don’t stick in my head that easily, except for maybe my age. For some reason that’s a hard number to forget. And yet here I am counting days I’ve been single, days since the course of my life changed, and now the number of blog posts I’ve written. This is #500!
When I sat down to write this post I had lofty goals. I wanted this post to have some thoughtful commentary on my life in the last year, or life in general. But as I looked at the blinking cursor on the screen the words weren’t coming to me, at least nothing all that deep or insightful on those topics. I could wait of course but I’ve given myself this deadline of getting #500 out before the next music post (which is already written and scheduled, and no, I didn’t want that one to be the 500th post).
It’s been a rough year. Have I mentioned that already? Yes, I know, I’ve written about that topic more times than most would deem necessary. But to be honest I think it was necessary. By writing about everything going on in my life I’ve had to think about it, analyze it, work through it, and get it out of my head. I’ve probably said this before, but it’s been very therapeutic. I’ve tried to be as honest as I can with you, the reader, and with myself. But I hope I’m not jinxing myself when I say that I think I’m through the worst of it and I can see bright days ahead.
I found some interesting things when I was looking at my blog stats earlier. Any guesses as to what my most viewed post is? It’s the post about wanting to be a Solid Gold dancer, something I wrote in 2014. I have no idea why, other than maybe because it’s linked to two WordPress writing prompts. The next most viewed is a poem that just came together on the page without a lot of forced effort, What Happens if I let Go? I’m still pretty proud of that one. Number three on the list is also one I like a lot, a photography post this time. It’s my “he loves me, he loves me not” entry which features a photo that placed second in my first and only photography contest I’ve entered.
I’m going to use this information to try to guide my efforts on this blog going forward. More photography, more poetry, more artistic endeavors, more music and dancing. I think this includes fiction writing and I will be pursuing more of that soon, I hope. So maybe less whining and lamenting, but I’m not going to stop sharing my life with you. I’m just hoping that the life I’m sharing with you includes more photography, more art, more music, and more loving people in my life.
I’m feeling optimistic. I’m in a good place. I’m settled. I’m trying to make each day count.