I’m back from a nearly week-long visit to corporate headquarters for the annual marketing meeting. As much as I may whine about the jet lag and the heat wave we experienced last week (made even more whine-worthy by the lack of A/C everywhere, including our hotel rooms), I’m feeling very grateful for the opportunity to go, for the opportunity to go again.
Sometimes I feel insecure about my perceived value at work. I know I’m valued, but as I get older and I see other talented people joining the team, I sometimes feel a little bit threatened. I think that’s probably the right word. I’m not as confident as others on my team and I know I’m not the most creative or the smartest, but I know I’ve earned my spot.
This was my third international meeting and while I didn’t present to the group, I did prepare two of the presentations. I let my fear of public speaking hold me back, so my boss did both presentations on his own while I chimed in from my seat. I enjoyed the meetings though, and I liked meeting more of our international colleagues and reconnecting with those I only see once a year in person.
I wish I was a little more outgoing and better at making conversation. I can talk about work all day, but I’m not great and asking questions that help me get to know people better. I enjoyed most of the evening activities, but they would have much more fun if it hadn’t been so oppressively hot! The last evening was an “interactive” barbecue. We were split into groups and given ingredients, a recipe, and a grill. The meal was delicious, but the best part was watching a few tipsy colleagues singing karaoke and doing the Macarena before we all had to get back on the bus to go back to the hotel.
It’s good to be back home though. Back in my own bed, my shower, and my air-conditioning!
